first day of CNY and i'm sick!!! argh!!! actually eve already started to get damn sick... i haven even eaten the ba gua!!!

4th day already and i'm still sick!!! tons of phelm stuck in my throat!!!

recently i have a new hobby... mahjong... haha!

monday lost $8 to my cousin, uncle and bro.
tuesday won $128, with my baby...
wednesday lost dont know how much cos it's my mum's game...

today going to boss's house for mahjong session again... haha! think i better not play... but not playing with money, i think it should be considered a training for me... hmmm....

lazy to upload pics... just so lazy... keep coughing... cough until my lungs are coming out... or rather i've coughed them out, as claimed by SOMEONE... and soon i'll be seeing that SOMEONE everyday...

sick for only a few days, my appetite dropped like crazy... lost an inch or 2 off my waist... which is so just in time... was damn adding on lots of inches already... contradiction: if i keep losing inches, i cant wear mango bottoms again!!! sucks!!!

changed my link, cleared my cbox...

things are getting uglier...

all those nonsense damn have to stop...

why missy-amb? missy just sound so auntie to me... like me...
amb = ambitious

i'm really getting old and ambitious!!!

is it me or there's a problem with blogspot???

since Sep08, i'm like clearing my room every 2 months... things are getting lesser... wardrobe emptier, table emptier, drawers emptier...

1 more day to Chinese New Year!!!

Hopefully this chinese new year would be a great one... it's another 3 more days and i'm starting to be packed with "dates"... if i dont get lazy, i'm gonna be busy!!! i'm like getting so forever busy!!!

so my dear friends... u got to make advanced booking for me!!! just joking...

finally coloured and highlighted my hair... but my mum says it looks the same!!!

life's boring... not much entertainment...

watched ong bak 2 last sat... damn stupid show... after movie went for mahjong!!! i finally get to learn how to play human mahjong!!! all the while i only play it with computers... lost $5... haha...

watched transporter 3... stupid show no subtitles... tons of questions mark throughout the show...

movies and more movies...

must earn more money to watch more movies!!!

got back my cpu!!! like so finally... i believe tons of effort was put in to get the titles of my 1000 over songs... althought the pictures are still in a mess, worst is there are so many unknown pictures in my com now!!! haha!!! nevertheless, i'm happy that my baby actually did this for me...

many things were left unsaid because i dont know how to put them into words... all of this are kept in my heart... to be able to love and be loved is a very blissful thing... to be able to have you in life is a real blessing...

horoscopes, zodiac, astrology... true or false?

went to visit the cute horoscope and astrology on facebook... and for me, Aries, Dragon...

Brief Description
Dragons are witty, enthusiastic, popular, intelligent and gifted yet are also perfectionists.

Positive Traits
Dragon: vibrant, magnanimous, charismatic, principled, self-sufficient, discriminating, compelling, sentimental, accomplished, noble-hearted, healthy and prodigiously shrewd

Aries: COURAGE AFFABILITY DRIVE TALENT HEARTINESS ENTERPRISE

Negative Traits
Dragon: bombastic, dissatisfied, ruthless, demanding, opinionated, mawkish, egocentric, defensive, power-mad, foolhardy, willful and pompous

Aries: NAIEVETE EXCESS OSTENTATION SANCTIMONY WILLFULNESS DOMINATION

Compatibility:
EXCELLENT -
Rat, Monkey, Rooster

i think it's kinda true for me... i'm a perfectionist... and i'm damn demanding and opinionated... i cant shut up!!! haha! from pri 1 - 6, there was always 1 word that will be indicated in my report book, "talkative"...

read my readings for the year 2009 at elias mall... guess wat? i've got tons of tao hua yun next year... haha! and i gotta remember to not play with people's feelings... sounds so much like i'm a player... but just to be safe... i'll bear that in mind...

i didnt realise i 'm suddenly so famous... first came jj lin, then chiobu and now joanna... very touched!!!

a little something for my special fan(s):

whatever you do online, can be traced... i know how to track you and i already who you are... things that have happened doesnt just occur overnight... i guess u're really young to understand... dont stress yourself on something that u're not capable of... anyway please do continue to tag me... u add tons of 'sparkles' in my life...

its a real miracle how 2 strangers can share such a connection... no strings attached... maybe this is what they call 'soulmates'... lovers, bestfriends, everything...

i must say i'm a lucky girl... have a great job, wonderful boss and colleagues, have at least some support from family, a smart little boy and a loving bf... but i still feel i'm damn lack of many more things... wat more can i ask for??? i guess it's just normal that no one is ever contented... thats why humans strive for the best...

my life now is like a set of jigsaw puzzle... all the pieces are just laying in front of me... it's up to me to put it together or leave it in a mess... and i do hope that at the end of it, there'll be no missing pieces...

i hope everything that i have read, that predicts my life in the new year, will be true... a better year for me in every ways...

hopes... i've got tons of hopes... i must turn my hopes into reality...

my hard disk died on me, leaving me no music nor photos... sad...
baby lend me his pretty laptop while he work on my lost stuff... happy...
i'm so contradicting...

this 2 weeks, freaking busy with work... working in office, working at home... clearing my last module at MDIS in feb... going on for a Diploma... gotta start doing a bit exercise cos i'm so damn putting on weight!!! i'm so gonna become a fast arse!!!

mon to fri, nasi lemak/bee hoon for breakfast... lunch time is fish's time at the fish soup cafe... haha... sometimes we'll have hua hua for dessert... there's great egg tarts and muffins too... so much temptations... damn need to control my diet!!!

things that i never liked nor appreciated are now like my number 1 dig ins now!!!

guess i'm still growing up, finding the real me...

chinese new year's coming... shopping sprees... love the festive season... the food... ... ... shit!!! CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL!!! ARGH!!!

offered to help carry this heavy load...

shared the load over a rough route home...

soon, fatigue caught up...

decisions made were then regretted...

blamed others for the decision oneself made...

dropped the load and walked off...

left stranded in the middle of nowhere...

things that was predictable was not taken into consideration..

rnb is damn needed to heal my soul!!!

where's my music!!!

p.s. on the phone ordering pizza from pizzahut!!!

baby and me are like movie maniacs!!! we're watching so many movies...

monday, finally the long awaited... twilight...

heard the book has a part 2 and 3... hopefully there will be a movie for it very soon!!! i'm just so lazy to read...

last night, for the first time, movie marathon... it was about 5.5hrs long... sit till butt pain...
movie: red cliff I & II

although i have no interest for this show, know no nuts about history... at least, i only know zhu ge liang and the princess (zhao wei) is very funny and zhang fei looks kinda amusing... haha... thats why i wanna watch part II... when i watched the first part, i was still wondering why they looked so familiar... i saw their statues in the temple before!!!

been busy with work... i'm still thinking of work now!!! very very very tempted to check for emails!!! i'm really crazy... my boss has got to love me for this!!!

suddenly having this pizzahut craving... hmm... i wanna eat pizza and honey wings!!!

the saddest thing happened... my e drive is GONE... all my memories and live long collection of music are GONE!!! i so wanna cry!!! but i know i wont cry... i'll just get all so damn emo over it...

i think i'll cry if i dont eat pizzahut!!! starving!!!

as i was posting my previous post... the thought of me blogging wat happened came to my mind... why i suddenly made such a decision to end a 4.5 years relationship...

love itself is just not enough...

not too long ago, i was told:
a couple should be 2 independent individuals coming together, inter-depending on each other to compliment each other...

thats my belief...

who wants a guy to depend on a girl... believes in controlling people... priorities his own needs... gets physically abusive...

i wont deny that there were good times... but are the good times enough for us to go on? no... it has became good memories... and his good memories just wont continue...

in a relationship, it takes 2 hands to clap... although i only did little stuff, but it's all this little stuff that adds together and makes a difference... but he didnt understand... he threw this away...

we got together, stayed on together, only for the sake of dylan...

love... it somehow left us very quietly... thats why everything ended up just being habits...

its a real pity... i agree... how we stayed on so long but surprisingly, we didnt put in any effort to make things work...

when did i stopped loving him? i dont know either... but i know its probably when he first hit me... the love between us started to fade...

and yes, i did hit him... and he pushed me to my limits to wanna kill him so badly... there were times at night when i so wanna just kill him... but i didnt...

whatever we had has become part of our memories... its really sad that things didnt worked out well... but in life, everyone has to move on... and its from things like that, will we learn...

this huge lesson learnt will be kept in my heart... its definitely not gonna happen again...

i'm not some pathetic bitch who is gonna cry saying "why is life so cruel to me"...

i chose this path myself... tough times wont last long... its hard now for me... really... with the watever shit he has left me in...

as much as i dont wanna go through all this, i have to... for this is the path i've carved out for myself...

i slept at 3.45am and woke up at 10.30 am...

just to see whoever tagged me here...

I DONT NEED ANYONE TO JUDGE MY LIFE NOR TELL ME WAT TO DO...

i'm not deleting the tag bcos thats so not true...

my friends and family knows what went wrong... and thats enough...

wat about u, stranger? judging from afar...

things about him had to be so filtered that only GOOD stuff can be posted... wtf...

fyi, i left him and then be with someone else... please understand words before using them...

just came back from rebel at about 3.30am...

cant sleep...

many things are going through my mind...

again...

what should i do...

to be disappointed is really a spoiler...

to be disappointed repeatedly can be hurtful...

it breaks the trust built...

it's really damn time for me to do something...

before i regret...

decided to close up the past, to start afresh...

i hope it'll help me...

why is Mr Sad bugging me all the time???

Imported: Saturday, January 3, 2009 ' 12:42 AM

almost missed out...

201208 - ex epps reunion... met peeps i didnt see for 8 years!!!

251208 - family dinner to celebrate my couz belle's engagement!!!

recently watched many movies as usual...

- Ip Man
- Bedtime stories
- Yes Man

still have many more i wanna watch!!!

Imported: Friday, January 2, 2009 ' 11:45 PM

happy holidays... hmm... actually it wasnt a so happy one... but anyway, the end of the day was great... just like class 95 says... or rather says something like that... it's not about how much love there is in the beginning, it's how much love thats is built at the end... cant remember exactly, but guess it's something like that... recently got stm!!! tired!!! moral of the story, it's about the results at the end of the day... at least i guess thats the moral... damn! i sucks at this!


finally got something damn decent for my earrings!!! from my baby!!! i wonder is this considered a christmas gift???

so much empty slots... damn tempted to buy more earrings to fill them up!!! i've really got in mind what are ones i want!!!



New Year's Eve!!!

this year's countdown is damn different... usually i'll go downtown east to countdown... after that, i can just walk home!!! haha!!! and i'll laugh at those waiting for cabs... i know i'm such an arse...


at my boss's place, bbq... couting down with my colleagues... iris, cool babe! damn helpful... always helping me at work... she drank so much wine/champagne that night that she kept on talking... haha... FastTrack!!! haha... the cutest thing was no one had a watch/clock that tells the seconds... so how we counted down was, first to count up! haha! 1, 2, 3 then 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! haha... damn interesting...


and our first countdown together... dylan just so love to pretend to be sleeping when taking photo... we were cam whoring all the way from home to thomson... luckily that night no need to "snatch" cab... my dad sent us to and fro... all cos of his precious grandson...

dylan had a great time as usual and didnt wanna go home... haha... on the way home in the car, he was telling grandpa that he'll go home bathe, change and go back my boss's house to stay!!!


my 2009 wishlist is like so damn long...

1. laptop
2. handphone
3. wardrobe
4. computer table
5. dresser
6. and a wardrobe re-vamp (which i've been waiting for so damn long)
7. tv (maybe)

thats all for now...

for the year 2009...

no more emo-ing so much for me...
gotta achieve something at work...
gonna make things work for us...

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