what do you do when... ... ...

you are a disaster magnet...
you screw every single little things...
you cant get the slightest thing done...
you screw even more stuff...
you cant get the slightest thing right...
nothing is near right...
your allies take you as an enemy...
everything in your life just contradicts...
you cant keep up to anyone's expectation...
you cant even meet your own expectation...
you cant be who you are...
you lost the one you once knew so dear...
everything you know is now the unknown...
you just lost total control...
you have no rights because nothing is right...
you are just a huge burden...
you cause nothing but trouble...
you dont bring the bread home...
you bring problems and more problems home...

absurd... total absurd...


all you think and care about is yourself... who the hell do you think you are? why the hell do you think you dont deserve all this? why the hell do u keep blaming others? you are the bloody problem... the creator, the end... why wont your sun just set and never rise? who the hell bothers whether you are dead or alive? maybe everyone will be glad that you're gone forever... because you are nothing but trouble... time wont stop for you... everyone just hates you... a piece of crap... total bullshit... worthless ditch... when enough is enough...